The Real Fight begins

The past few days have been very tough I have to admit, the hards yards are kicking in and it hurts big time. I find my taste has pretty much gone or is varying so much that I don't know what to eat anymore, my mouth is seriously sore, Dr Boyes-Varley checked it today and the sores go all the way down my throat. Swallowing is a mission, my mouth is dry as a rock and the thought of food makes me feel ill and even water tastes like metal...so all not good in the Sharp camp. Carol is pushing me hard to try stuff, bless her, she goes back to the UK tomorrow for a few days and I am really going to miss her, I need to find the motivation to eat and especially to drink...So the fight I think starts here day 17 or 18 I think and another 17 to go......So on the toothpaste trials, we are about to embark on a special dry mouth toothpaste called biotene, lets hope it works!! I will update you in the days to come on how successful we are with it.

On the positive side, Orlanda arrived on Tuesday and has taken a day or so to settle in, she will be great company I took her down to the office today and showed her around a bit, took her up to where she will be working and met a couple of people from the Events Team, seem like really nice people and I think she will fit in really well and enjoy what should be a busy year for the bank, especially as its the 150th year for Standard Bank, you put things into context like that and you realise that my 7 weeks or so is a drop in the ocean? Steve Jennett one of my good mates who is working down here with Elix-IRR took Orlanda and Carol for coffee whilst I did my meetings - thanks Steve. We also did dinner last night with Steve and Nick, which was lovely, although I really struggled, think I ate two prawns!!

So at the oncology centre yesetrday they weighed me and was down again to 95.8kgs, I think I can still lose some weight but they tell me this is not good and that if I hit a certain weight (not aligned to what your weight can be, but they calculate what it can come down to before its a problem) then it gets very ugly, tubes into your stomach and other gross things that I won't mention on the blog...Really struggled through today, I remember the counsellor telling me that irrelevant issues become more so and with the amount of issues we are unravelling at work this is becoming hard to stay cool, have to bite my tongue - well most of the time I can't really feel it so should be ok...lol! I hope I can maintain going to work as it keeps my mind off negative stuff and keeps me busy which I think is important, but it is absolutely knocking the stuffing out of me and I might have to see how I can work differently? all ideas welcomed

I hold the best news from last night to Spurs beating Everton 2-0, a rare goal from Lennon and an absolute corker from Assou-Ekotu, so joint second, could be joint top on Sunday if we beat Wolves and if Man City lose to Wigan and we beat them the following week we will be TOP, I think even the gooners have got to say we are challenging this season for the Premiership title?

So Carol back next week on the 19th with my eldest daughter Lauren who is down for 6 weeks, really looking forward to them being here, Carol tells me the tricks I pull to try and convince her we should stay in SA, well you gotta try eh? lol! I think we'll do Easter down here now, hopefully I will be feeling a lot better and we can sample some of the wonders of this beautiful country.