Week 6 - The hard yards continue

So I mentioned the other day that I felt I was out of the marathon and into the sprint, eh wrong, what I should have realised is that I am at that point in the marathon called the "wall", you hit it and ouch does it hurt, so no where near the sprint!!

In all honesty this is very difficult, on the one hand I feel a lot better, my jaw untrapped itself on Friday and over the weekend it almost felt normal, the sores in my mouth have reduced slightly, although I have new ones on my tongue which as with any tongue ulcer is fricking painful!

But, I have no appetite, I am feeling extremely tired and worn out, in fact just completley shot to bits, I don't know how much longer I can keep working for...I have been going in everyday for about 5 hours until I leave for my treatment in the afternoon, now I have treatment, go home and sleep for about 3 hours and still wake up knackered. So whilst I think I am getting over the hard part it becomes tougher in a different way, I now understand what the counsellor meant by staying physically strong, boy you need to...

I haven't really been able to do anything else except, sleep, go to work, go for treatment, sleep and try to eat which is proving to be very hard, taste is non-existent except for some foods, eggs mainly, oh and ginger biscuits for some reason, but that is about it. If I can give anyone any advise at this stage, listen to your family nagging you, as mine do, but they are right you must eat, you definitely must drink (I think that is one thing that has stopped me being hospitalised) and stay hydrated, otherwise the alternative is not good!

The IMRT machine has to be serviced this weekend which means my treatment now extends to the 8th February, not far away I hear you say, but trust me at the moment it feels like a lifetime, one nice thing today though, Ilke (the physio) who has done a great job for me gave me a gift of a fab bottle of wine that I can drink and celebrate with once this is all over, man I can't wait for that day!